Salvation

I've been having a tough time lately. Unfortunately, this has been negatively effecting my husband as well. Nagging wife = bad feelings. Poor guy. And poor me too. I hate when I get in the spiral of negativity. My spiral has it's own gravity; it pulls everything along with it. I've been driving everybody nuts trying to get Merrina to take regular naps, and longer naps. Not only do all the books remind you that a bad nap day means a bad (non) sleeping night, but you find this out yourself easily enough, and on top of it, what the heck do you do with a infant for 12 hours a day!!?? She can't sit on her own yet, so I'm pretty much physically holding her or moving her from chair to swing to floor to car seat all day long. Dishes pile up, dust bunnies form, dinners and beds are left un-made.

But today I'm feeling so much better. The e-mail message below (written to Charlie) explains:

While I've decided to stop sharing all my baby chagrin with you, I thought you may enjoy hearing the good news that I found salvation today. It came in the form of a two-year old blog posting (http://www.askmoxie.org/2007/03/qa_babies_takin.html). Literally, reading this made me cry. I know I'm not alone! And not a freak. And not a bad mom. Thank God for the Internet.

Love,

xoxo

I think he'll be happy to hear something positive, but I don't think he'll really understand the depth of relief and appreciation I feel at hearing these words from other women in my situation. I know, I know...."just relax and go with the flow". That's obviously good advice for any mother, but sometimes , it just doesn't cut it until you hear it from someone who is going through exactly the same thing as you. And until your exhausted and desperate enough to believe it.